New Career?

Women are are supposed to be soft and dainty. I understand that and that's fine. As a child up to my high school years, I was never a skinny girl. Nothing dainty about me. I tried a few sports in high school. Softball and track. Nothing really caught my attention. I was too afraid to play volleyball because of the fear of the ball hitting me right in the face. Didn't want to play basketball because I didn't think I would be good enough and I would be ready to fight if someone stole the ball while I dribbled it down the court. My girly side didn't want to sweat and my tomboy side really wanted to try some type of sport.

Over the years, I have gained a strong love for the game of football. I never quite understood the game until I actually paid attention. I would start an argument if I said Football requires way more skill than basketball. It's true though. hahaha... After watching the game and attending them, I realized that it wouldn't hurt for a woman to play. I never knew that Women's Professional Football existed until I watched: I want to Work for Diddy. I always thought women played "flag football" or something. During the winter season I wrecked my brain on if I would really play and where these women's teams existed. I didn't research it but while I didn't research, my cousin Daneice surprised the family with some interesting news. SHE GOT DRAFTED for the women's pro football team Cleveland Fusion. So now that I know it really does exist, and tryouts are soon-- I will be conditioning and training to play football. Why not? It won't hurt to try if I don't make it. I'll just know what mistakes I made so that I can work on them for next year. Im not saying that I'll stop modeling but my career is at a standstill because of conflict of interest with a lot of things. I can't control everything and I'm just TIRED. I've been exposed and beautifully destroyed. I love art and everything about it, but I just feel like I need the right people behind me-- and I don't have that right now. So I am going to try something new for a bit and see where it takes me.

Art History

Anyone who knows me, knows that I love art. I'm also a major history nerd and I love movies. Together this combo makes the movie: Frida. I believe the movie was tremendously under rated but Salma Hayek had her character "Frida Kahlo" down to a science. Many of you who are reading this probably do not know what I am talking about. Here is a breif history on whom Frida Kahlo is.

Frida Kahlo born in 1907 was a Mexican Painter.She did not originally plan to become an artist. She was polio survivor, at 15 Kahlo entered the premedical program at the National Preparatory School in Mexico City. However, this training ended three years later when Kahlo was gravely hurt in a bus accident. She spent over a year in bed, recovering from fractures of her back, collarbone, and ribs, as well as a shattered pelvis and shoulder and foot injuries. Despite more than 30 subsequent operations, Kahlo spent the rest of her life in constant pain, finally succumbing to related complications at age 47. She fell in love and married Mexican muralist Diego Rivera at 21,whose approach to art and politics suited her own. Although he was 20 years her senior, they were married in 1929; this stormy, passionate relationship survived infidelities, the pressures of Rivera's career, a divorce and remarriage, and Kahlo's poor health.

To watch a preview of the movie click HERE

To See Fridas Paintings click HERE

One of Frida's oil on panel painting titled Portrait of Christina, My Sister (1928) was auctioned at Sotheby's for $1,655,750

Be Peaceful,Greatful, & Love

As I have aged on this earth gracefully, I've learned from my mistakes but I don't regret anything I've done or said. At that time, it was something that I felt that I wanted to do, or something that I wanted to say. Not because I thought it was the best decision or not to have said something to hurt anyone. Many of us as adults still carry out our childish antics in situations where we should have though before taking action. It isn't easy to accept being wrong in most instances. Although we all want to be right, we are not. No one is perfect. This lifetime will never come again; it is precious and irreplaceable. To live without regret, we must have a concrete purpose, continually setting goals and challenges for ourselves.We need to keep moving toward those specific targets steadily and tenaciously, one step at a time. Just as fire is extinguished by water, hatred can only be defeated by love and compassion. Therefore, when you see someone doing well, congratulate them. It isn't wise to step on another mans/woman's hands/toes to get to the top in any situation. If you really want something, fight for it. No matter how great YOU may think YOU are, YOU can always go HARDER and be GREATER!

AID's Awareness

A few years ago, I got this YOUTUBE video in my email from my cousin. As I watched this man, who was covered in a hat/du rag/skully and bandanna tied around his nose and mouth, I wanted to throw up. Not only did he look stupid and horrid, but he also lived in a hole in the wall, like a little sewer rat. He claimed to have had sex unprotected with a ridiculous amount of women but he also admitted to be HIV positive and he also had a list of names. After he said one girls name, he stated her age, he continued to say "she was a hoe anyway". Another he said "She was only eighteen, it was her first time". Watching the whole video made me sick to my stomach and made my mother burst into tears. I honestly could not believe my eyes and ears. He goes by the name "Trash man". He further explained that since he had a nice car, a certain amount of money, wore a diamond chain and was handsome that women go after him in the club or anywhere. He the stated that he can ride through the "hood" in his nice car with rims and pick up any "hood rat" basically because they aren't used to that and they are willing to have sex for peanuts.

I watched it over again, just because I have to analyze everything. The first time I watched I really didn't pay attention but the second time around I listened to his words with understanding. He made a valid point. A lot of women go after glitz and glam. The guy doesn't have to be famous or anything but a lot of women are materialistic, if the guy has a nice car, a nice house, pulls out a wad of money or even got on a fresh pair of expensive shoes, then they are all over him. They don't care if the guy is corny or full of shit, they will still give up the goods on THEE very first night in hopes of something in return. To each its own but--to go as far as "unprotected" sex on the very first time you meet someone EVER is absolutely ridiculous.

Anyhow, I continued to read the comments under the video. One YouTube-er stated "he's talking about NuShawn Williams. This guy is fake. I helped NuShawn with homework in school".--So "Trashman" is a fake? Yes, the idiot is. He has all these videos (well used to) on YouTube. One claiming to have been paid five hundred thousand dollars by Jim Jones to kill New York rapper Stack Bundles. Another, fishing feces out of a toilet claiming to make "doo doo stew" for a playboy model he invited over for dinner and the one video he got arrested for, for saying that he laced Gerber baby food with poison. (see it HERE) Come to find out he is 42 year old Anton Dunn from Manhattan, New York.

::sidenote:: The AID's video he posted is great for AID's awareness. He even says, that the girls were easy and that he is teaching a lesson ::not kidding:: see it HERE

So I googled "NuShawn Williams" and found the whole story on this man. He apparently had moved to a small city in New Jersey and was "the man" because he was new. He slept with numerous women and infected 13 women in Chautauqua County,New York with HIV. He claims he didn't know he had the disease but continued to spread it to a few high school girls who got tested and apparently his name was coming up from all of them. One girl got pregnant and had to take medication during her pregnancy to eliminate her child from having the disease.




In 1999, he pleaded guilty to two counts of statutory rape and one count of reckless endangerment in the first degree for having unprotected sex with a woman who did not know his HIV status. He received a 4-to-12 year sentence. To this day, he states he was unaware of his diagnosis and is very remorseful for the burdens and pains he caused.

He is set to be released sometime this month because his sentence has been served.
How do you feel about his release? How do you think he will conduct himself?

Be very careful if you make a woman cry-God counts her tears.

The woman came out of a mans rib;

Not from his feet to be walked on-Not from his head to be superior-

but from the side to be equal,

under the arm to be protected and next to the heart to be loved.

GO GIRL!! ITS YA BIRTHDAY!!!

This past Sunday was my 25th Birthday Party along with Fan Appreciation for Cleveland's own Grammy Nominated Young Yonny for producing the wonderful song [which was my birthday theme song] "Say Ahh" by Trey Songz featuring Fabolous. My special guest was Jayonna Fabro and she is such a great friend! I love her so much!! My friend Tamina came in from New York (http://www.theminascope.com/).
I of course had a very very great time, not to mention my whole weekend was great!! I'd love to relive every moment. It was more than special and memorable. Anyhow, please feel free to view the photos and such. :o) My actual birthday is until March 29-- but it's all good. I want to give a special thanks to Mervyn Jones-(My brother/cousin),Jeannine, Courtney, Tamina, Justin, Shonte, Yonny, Rise, Jayonna, Ashley T., ROB Hushmoney, and everyone else that came out to party with me! You all were great and I love you!! I also want to say thank you to the Ritz Carlton staff--FOR NOTHING!! They didn't put my cake in the fridge like THEY SUGGESTED- it completely fell over because the icing and filling melted-- and now they owe me a brand new one, which I will be picking up on Thursday.

Past, Present, Future by: Iyuana-Nichole

This poem woke me up in the middle of the night and I'm surprised that I remembered it to write it out. This I introduce to you is 'Past, Present,Future'. It actually is something that is real life for not just me but I'm pretty sure a few people feel this way about someone who they genuinely care for no matter what happens, no matter their attitude, occupation or how they feel about you. That person just keeps holding you at a distance and is not trying to hear you out because of your past with them or your past in general. Or because they aren't ready to grow with you. I think that its selfish on that persons behalf. But read it and enjoy.

Past, Present, Future
Can't get away from the past
When its in my present
What do I do?
Besides put it in a frame as the future
Can't get away from the present
When it is the present
Stuck in the middle
Of what we want it to be
For the future.
Can't forget about the past
It IS the future
Locked in a frame
For everyone to see.
You see
Everyone remembers the past
Not what you are destin to be
There is no positive
If you can't look beyond.
Thats why there is no future
For you and me.

*thought out and written by Iyuana-Nichole*

Being Genuine

I'm sure we all want to know the answer to the question I am about to present.

When you have feelings for someone who is always being hounded and all that craziness of the opposite sex, how do you prove to them that you are the most genuine out of them all, knowing that you can't MAKE someone love you or make them understand how you feel?

That is a tough question, and most importantly a tough action to take. My answer is and/or opinion is: Sometimes that person 'just knows' or they have a instant connection. Otherwise, you have to give the person time to get to know your feelings and who you are as a person although you cannot force yourself onto someone. You actually have to be real with the man/woman like "i am and always will be here no matter what", or simply KEEP IT 100% real at all times. Remember that one small lie or fib can lead to disaster. The person will lose trust instantly. Its not about how long you've known someone or how much you know about that person. Its about chemistry and connection, but like I said you have to let them get inside your mental as well. Also it is not WHAT you say, it's HOW you say it. For the most part if you want that person to take you serious you cannot just jump right into bed with them. [In some cases that type of thing leads to something serious but not all the time don't take that and run.] Am I right or wrong? Tell me your opinion.

What's Your Purpose?

Life is a challenge and if you don't challenge yourself then you have no purpose. You have to ask yourself, what do you want out of life itself? Not what you want out of yourself. Of course you want yourself to be successful, but you have to live your life and make something of it. You gotta crawl before you walk. Move forward never backwards. Yes you will have a downfall and something might hold you back but don't move backwards. Women do have more power than men. But it's the men who make women think they 'CANT'.

Learn from experience not from what people tell you. You come in this world ALONE and you leave this world ALONE. That's why I walk ALONE. Too many people are out in here walking this earth for the wrong reasons. Everyone has a different hustle. Get it how you live. But when it comes down to it are you really proud about how you earn your money? Does it make you who you are? Because GOD put you on this earth for a reason. Make something of your life. Ladies don't just sit around having babies by men so you can cash in. Get up and stop living off the support money for your child. Believe it or not, one day that man is gonna get smart and take custody of that child because you don't have anything without him... Think about it... Use your head for more than a hat rack.

Get an education or teach yourself new things everyday so that you will be able to teach your children history.