Diary Of A Tired Black Man

What do YOU think? This is just the TRUTH! lol

Let Me Know...

There are a lot of haters out here in the world. My definition of a HATER is someone who points out all of your flaws and basically has something negative to say about everything that you do no matter how well you're doing. Hating is NOT your opinion..I want you all to take notes, because it seems that OPINIONS and HATE get mixed up in the everyday world. Now in the dictionary an OPINION is stated as: a personal view, attitude, or appraisal. HATERhad two definitions that stood out: 1)to feel intense dislike, or extreme aversion or hostility. 2)An enemy to God, and a hater of all good. So, don't use your opinion and being a hater mixed in together and think its okay, use one. I know I have plenty of haters but I don't care I love them!! It's so cool to me to hear what someone else made up about me or to see what they will say next. I FUCKING LOVE IT!!! Now tell me, what is YOUR definition of a hater? I know there is a lot.

Yea, Yea, Yea

While evaluating my life and where I'm headed, I realized that I over think things and I think too hard. It's not a bad thing and it comes in handy. I've decided to better myself in everything. Fun can wait until later. I have to focus on what my future is. Meanwhile-evaluating every aspect about me was well over due. I had to take a step outside myself to see whats really good. I don't hate to say it but the people I associated myself with was not a good look for me. I feel--when you are surrounded with positive energy, positive will happen. People have never influenced me to do anything that I didn't want to. That's stupid. I was never the type to feed off of "peer pressure". I just can't hang around people who live in the moment when there IS a future ahead of us all. It's hard to stay focused that way because they're talking about niggas and who they can pull while I'm talking about my future and where I want to be in less than five years. Its impossible for that type of person to be happy for you because they realize they aren't on the same path. Same book different page. You see me? Anyhow people fail to notice that I am Ms. Carmen Santiago in the flesh and I find out the truth about everything even if I get a slight migraine ironing out the situation. So for those people who I cut off or are starting not to pay attention to you. It's all because I found out you lied to me at one point over something extremely petty so that you can look cooler than you really are. No. ANNNNNNND I'm not sorry-and I don't accept your apology. I don't judge people but maybe you need to get some polish about yourself and step your game up. I'm on my way to making myself better woman. You can say whatever you want doesn't matter to me. I'm focused on something brand new.
BUT I will not forget where I came from so to the people that were there for me or around me and who really know me, you know you'll ALWAYS see my face. Oh yea, I also want to thank Mervyn for having this great convo with me yesterday--it seems as if we are on the same page! Love ya Merv!

Seriously?

Now, from my understanding... The government is supposed to be oh so confidential,careful and top secret with everything..Right? Well-I was on http://www.cnn.com just trying to get myself up on current events around the world and came across an article/video basically saying the government is slippin in they pimpin. The government "by accident" put something on the net that they later said could be helpful to terrorists...-blank stare- Are they trying to set us up or something? Terrorists don't miss a beat when it comes to shit like that. Am I right or am I right? They want to blow us the fuck up or take our planes down so bad they can taste it and the government announces that shit on the NEWS?! I'm confused--they're supposed to be protecting us right? Somebody please tell me what I saw with my own two eyes isn't true and it's all just a dream.

You See Me?

I can say that I think like a guy. It took me a while to realize it. But it is what it is.

My friend and I were having this conversation the other day and I am more than comfortable to share with you. I really don't care about what you think after you read it because most of you women will feel the same way if you come out and say it or not. I am not afraid to speak how I feel.

Well the conversation was about her and I really not giving two shits about what a man has because we can get it too. In example: Money, Cars, Clothes--The Hoes...lol.. Everything a man can get so can we. Most women scream that independent shit but still need a man to provide for them. It's cool if you're married or in a committed relationship-because you need each other,but all that fuckin this person and that person then expecting one of those niggas to provide for you completely, is out of line. So we both came to the conclusion: Fuck what you have, just do your job and lay the pipe. Who cares about the other chicks, what you have, where you get your clothes, dates and all that. DO WHAT YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO DO, if nothing else. Shit- guys do it to us. They don't want a relationship and they don't care about how we get by because at the end of the day they are going to do them. I feel them completely. So with that being said, post your comments--your judgement--I don't care because I will still feel this way until someone is worth my time....

Beauty IS Pain

No one in this world is perfect. I'm so far from it, it doesn't make sense. I have THE thickest hair that GOD could of ever put on somebody. & it's ALL over my body. My granny said it's because I have rich blood (??? whatever that means)My legs are the worst and might I add I have hair that grows on my big toes. gross huh? As much as I hate shaving and waxing I wouldn't trade it for anything because thats what makes me, ME! So yesterday after a quick pedicure-- I discovered that the hair grew back in on my big toes..lol.. So I politely got my razor and shaved it off... but I accidentally cut myself :(

So shortly after, since I have no chemicals in my hair what so ever- I have to flat press and use a hot comb on my head. While getting my kinks and knots all untangled with the "nigga comb", I burned my damn arm...

**if i offended anyone using the word "nigga", im not sorry.... :)

WOW

I've heard of this book but wasn't sure when it was published. I heard all of the talk on radio shows and everything but now I figured out what its called and I am so happy to say that I can go to the bookstore and buy my own copy. From what I understand, the author describes these "hip hop Moguls" but keeps their names discreet by making up new names for them.
Can you guess who these industry men are? Leave your comments
“Malcolm” A record mogul who has diversified his success in music, business, clothing, and politics and who always has a stunning woman on his arm, had his boy toy in VIP with him (at an industry party)

“Gus”An R&B singer/songwriter who had written major hits for artists including En Vogue, SWV and Changing Faces. His clear skin, dark eyes, bushy eyebrows and short wavy hair….he was just too pretty. He eventually became a “gangster styled” artist.

“Craig”Top rapper who was a part of a successful rap group that changed the dynamics of hip-hop with their philosophical rhymes over hard-core beats. Craig garnered attention because of his rugged good looks that made him a standout in the group.

“Drake”He was a member of one of the most popular R&B groups. They had several number one Billboard hits, and the young girls loved him because the adorable, sexy front singer, Drake had a flamboyant stage presence. He was very eccentric in his style, defying more conventional looks in his appearance. Drake didn’t hold back when he performed either…showing his muscular frame. [He] branched out on his own as a solo artist and had a huge hit single which led to a few acing roles in major motion pictures.

“Eli”A popular multi platinum rapper who started his own label. Eli was a forced to be reckoned with. He flew out the gate with his debut album and would become a mainstay in the ever-changing Hip Hop industry. He has been hailed as one of the greatest rappers to bless the mic.

“Quinn”He had a velvet melodic voice and broke out with a sensual single in the late 90’s. His self-titled debut album produced two top Billboard hits.

“Galvin”Once a part of a legendary R&B group who had experienced a brief stint as a successful solo artist, was allegedly linked romantically to an A-list male actor.

PLEASE LEAVE YOUR COMMENT IF YOU KNOW WHO THESE PEOPLE ARE

I Don't Usually Do This...

Lord knows I HATE telling people what kind of parfum I wear. I like to be the only one that can wear something. lol. I hate to look, smell, act like everybody else. So here goes. I wear Bond No.9. You can most likely find it in Saks Fifth Ave. Don't think you can roll up in there with twenty dollas and buy it. Twenty dollars will probably get you a sample. LOL! The shit is sooo exclusive that the guy who actually designs the bottles held a class at Saks one Saturday to let you design your OWN bottle- But you had to purchase a full sized bottle of this liquid gold. I love it! The good thing about it is that men and women can wear it. Its the shiiit!! I currently own Wall Street, Andy Warhol Union Square, Brooklyn, and The Scent of Peace. I wear Wall Street the most, its my favorite one. On their website http://www.bondno9.com/ they sell them cheaper than Saks (of course) 100ml- 198.00, 50ml- 140.00, 7ml-45.00-- The prices really aren't that bad considering that this is not watered down like body spray or a commercial scent. So go to your nearest Saks and test them out. Oh yeah, you can blend the scents too because that's what they are made for anyways.

Rhotographic Photoshoot-CupCake

My Cup Cake production.. That was a looong day... I was so tired at the end of the day...