Like Every Color Giuseppe's,Your Guilty Pleasure Is Me

.im a girly girl. i love everything about being a woman. from the hair, nails, things pink, skin shoes, clothes-- interior designing...all that.

for this past year and a half i was seeing an older guy- which really only started out as friendship because of the situation he got himself in and slowly got out of. (not a woman) during this time i was dating other men who pump me up only to bring me down with their "drama filled lives", and not knowing what they wanted from the opposite sex. while seeing this older guy, he made me realize without saying it, what it truly means to be a woman. no he didn't brain wash me. he did help me to open my eyes to the specifics about me. things such as hair, nails and make up. everyone has different views on that subject, but i had to agree to disagree with him.

i have been wearing acrylic nails for as long as i can remember. i feel so completely naked with out that coat of acid over top of my nails. i know it doesnt make your nails stronger, but i just love the way my french tip or nail polish looks on it after everythings all done. yes i wore them super long and a friend of mine always has to be a smart ass and told me that it was unsanitary. i don't do unsanitary things, and i wash my hands and make sure im clean.(asshole). anyways the "old" silent partner was trying to explain to me that "women wear their nails short, those long nails is kid shit" **clears throat** huh? i happen to like my nails long because sometimes i just like to get ghetto girl designs on them.-- but then i thought about it. i am getting up there in age and that is some high school shit. FINE. so i cut my nails down. which did feel good. NOW i have completely taken the acrylic off and i wear my natural nails. i polish them sometimes or they just stay natural.


yes, i have come to the conclusion that i am getting older and i don't enjoy the same things i used to. i have turned into a homebody. which i have no problem with. i'm trying to get myself together as a person.

Now back to this "woman" thing according to this 36 year old.

i honestly cant stand my hair. it curls up when its humid.i have no chemicals in it. it wont hold curls after a while. i have to wash it every three days and its just a big mess. i dont have the time. so it either stays down or it goes into a ponytail.-of course there was a problem with that.

you know, he just started to be a pain in my rear end (after the positive input was absorbed). like when the cartoons by accident sit on a needle..you know? im the type of person that if i am really feeling you and you are feeling me, then hey, maybe we should focus on each other and maybe we can become an "item". i'm a real bitch so i told him how i felt. and i dont normally do that because i hate rejection.so i bet you can guess what the next problem was: "you're too young, you havent lived your life"

Excuse me sir..i have seen and been through more shit than you can possibly know. who are you to tell me what i may be ready for and how much i have lived? i think that's something called judgement.

so heres the rundown: my nails were too long, i do nothing with my hair and i havent lived my life. fine. poof be gone then.so just when i think he's poofed out of my life.. im hangin out with my ex on some friendly shit, and i get a phone call. "So i see you with your boyfriend"

okay stalker. is this the ONLY reason you call me?

time goes on... A FEW DAYS AGO im minding my own business riding down the street and i missed a phone call so i call back "YEA WERE YOU JUST RIDING DOWN 93rd?" i mean seriously guy... you only call me when you see me in the streets? doesnt matter i have a resolution to all of that..i just wont answer hahahahaha. in all honesty i thought by dating someone who was much older would eliminate drama and mostly everything negative. thought i would be able to look to him for some type of SOMETHING!!! but im done with that. you cant play hard to get with a female thats hard to get.

**by the way the nail polish above that i tried and loved is called "blu": hi-definition by sally hansen**

Damn She Fine...

I GOT A NEW HAIRCUT--U LIKE?

INSPIRED BY MY DARLING BROOKY

"Take Me Out To The Ball Game, Cuz I Only Fuck Wit Ballers"

With the name "Trophywife", and the looks of a goddess (.don't judge me.lol.). Everyone seems to think that I am someone who wants a man to take care of me, while I sit at home filing my nails getting fanned while some servant peels grapes and other exotic fruits feeding them to me sitting by the pool on the coast of Egypt. I FUCKING WISH.

I don't live in a fantasy world. I know nothing will happen unless I make moves. I actually have a JOB. I know it's hard to believe, but it is very true. I work 10-12 hour shifts. I don't ever yell out that "I don't need no man to do shit for me cuz I got it all" because I know thats not true. Men and Women were ment to be because they need eachother for SOMETHING. I know there are some women out there that yell that "independent" shit-- only because Neo and Jamie Foxx got ya heads all types of fucked up. Stop living your life by songs and be real with yourselves and BE YOURSELF!!!.

As far as the quote "take me out to the ball game, cuz i only fuck with ballers- yup them is my type of niggas-shot callers", is far from a lie. Now lets get this shit straight---> Bal-ler: an individual with a large sum of money{and continues to get it}. If I get money, what makes you think that I want someone broke. I may not be a walking Bank Of America ATM but I think I make a descent amount of money and planning my life accordingly.You NEED money in order to survive and provide. Am I right or Am I right? Because I think I'm right. I mean don't get me wrong but every woman wants a BOSS--BUT-- I believe that in every relationship both people should work or have some type of income. What if one of you can't work..then what? I dont give a damn how much money one or the other makes the both of you need to be gettin money. Provide for eachother and stop just depending on one source of income. Anything can be taken away at any given moment. I mean damn, I'm borderline lazy but I like nice things so I go to work. You want to argue about it, leave a comment.

My New "Body Mark"

The last tattoo's that I got on my wrists, I got scorned by a few people. I was told it's not lady like and a bunch of bull-- that I wouldn't make it in corporate world. HA! Not to say I don't care but there isn't anything some sleeves can't cover. My "guy friend", said not to get anymore or something to that effect but I couldn't pass up this tattoo that I really wanted. I've been saying that the last tattoo that I get will be down my side. That's just what I got and I love it! It took the artist like an hour and a half to draw it up, then an hour and a half to needle it in on my side. It was very painful but I'm a soulja-- I sucked it up and took it like a woMAN. Its far from finished, everyone is telling me to get it colored in and not to leave it black and flesh..lol.. I'll think about it.