Then The Jealousy Kicks In

i dont usually internet blast people. matter of fact, i dont remember when i actually called somebody out by name on the internet. i always send subliminal messages to let the person to stop where they stand or a warning, if you will. so that they know for one i mean business and two it is not a game. i always thought it was disrespect to call someone out over the Internet and cowardly. in this case, i know where the bitch works and i also know where else to find her. i said i was not going to stoop to her level because i am way ahead of her in life. since i know she checks on me via world wide web, i am calling her out. Nicole. yes that is the tramps name. the "woof woof" and i used to be cool. we used to hang out frequently. one day her boyfriend up and moved out. i wondered why, he was screamin and you know yelling and all the shit you do to somebody when they hurt you or your feelings. i asked her what it was about and she told me 'he dont trust me because im a stripper'.

PAUSE

here is the real reason. she called herself fucking the niggas from the strip club and brought something home. trickin if you will. she is the bitch that will fuck for a buck and do somethin strange for a piece of change. after i found that out, i was still cool with her and didnt hold it against her, we are human. we all do silly stupid things right? WELL then the bitch crossed the line. a few nights after i turned down a night of kickin it with her, my ex calls me like 'you wont believe who just tried to push up on me at the strip club' of course her ass didnt pop into my mind until he said NICOLE. i was furious. of course he didnt talk to her because looking at her mouth, you could tell where they held the fireworks for fourth of july at. so i didnt confront her or anything, i just simply cut her off. A WHOLE YEAR & A HALF GOES BY and she stopped at my house. i wasnt home so someone from home calls me and puts her on the phone. she meets my friend Talayah and i up at this place called scorchers. she starts telling me about how her boyfriend was so abusive and how he did some bullshit, and i dunno a bunch of bologna. then she figures out no one cares and says she'll catch up with me later. whatever hoe. so she calls me and calls me sends me texts about how we should start our friendship over she dont strip no more and she goin to school and she work a nursing home.... no bitch im good. i dont need no friends.

ANOTHER YEAR GOES BY... so this afternoon im talking to my ex and hes like 'i ran into ur girl at the strip club lastnight' yes, the same girl--oops excuse me the same THIRTY YEAR OLD that said shes in school and working at a nursing home. RIIIIGGGHHHT.. so he goes on to say that she was sayin how pretty i was and that i need to be working up there. (uuuhhh--anyone who is smart knows you dont make no money at strip clubs in cleveland. sorry boo boo. you broke) *side note*- anyone who is close to me or who i let into my world knows all about SP. SO the bitch continues to spill the beans to my ex telling him ALL about SP and our relationship and how i should just be milking him for his money and all this crazy shit. of course a gutta butt hood rat ass simple minded bitch like her would never know the true meaning of love and having love for somebody and when u care about someone nothing else matters but your love for each other. then tell my ex that i was only using him for money. i just want to know what money did my ex have that i didnt? i get my own money... so thats when the jealousy kicks in. shes mad because i obviously have something she wants. DUUUH YANA! DUH! you just cant kick it with people who are below your stature. thats just like Donald Trump kickin it wit Tae the dope boy or HOV having lunch with your local rapper who doesnt even have a mixtape. DUH YANA-- hang out with people on your level! thats the lesson to everyone! do not hang out with hood rats ladies! you see i had to learn the hard way. or shit just stay to yourself. bitches aint shit...i tell you the truth.

i hope everyone learned something today: dont worry about the people in your past, there is a reason they didnt make it to your future.

My Beauty Sh*t

i've been procrastinating on sharing my beauty products. i use various different products and i switch it up often when i find out about something new. i dont necessarily recommend that you use everything that i post because every ones skin and hair is different. use at your own risk.i started using this product like four months ago and i can honestly say it works. its called BABY DONT BE BALD. you're only supposed to use it on your scalp because applying it to your actual hair, can make it sticky. since i shaved the side of my head i decided to let my hair grow back in and i can see the progress. it is actually growin in faster than expected.

i didn't notice that i used a bunch of PROCLAIM products. i use olive oil spray, cholesterol for my deep conditioner, and when i flat iron i use the gloss in the red bottle. i also use Silk Elements, Paul Mitchell, and my favorite is CANTU. Cantu works wonders and I recommend it to everyone.

since my skin is so oily and sensitive i can only use NEUTROGENA. i use the clear pore mask twice a week and i use the acne wash every day,twice a day. it makes my skin dry and flaky but then i just use cocoa butter on my dry patches.here, is my everyday body "stuff". if you click the picture you can get a larger clearer view of everything. i usually switch up lotions, in fact this is all i have left and i need to go shopping.

like most women, M.A.C is my favorite base make-up and concealer. i use NC40 in the winter with a bit of bronzer and NC42 i used to use until i started noticing a yellowish/pinkish tint. i no likey. for my lips, i use cocoa butter 'lip butter' to soften my lips up. cover girl eyelites mascara and the eye shadows i use are my everyday eyeshahows which consist of gold, black, and bronze.

i had to squeeze this in. my favorite scent/lotion from bath & body works. its called PEARBERRY and it's also discontinued so if its your favorite then you have to go online to order it.

Now That's A Bad B*tch

what man do you know that doesn't want a bad ass chick? i am always the one to give another female props if she is fly, sexy, or gorgeous. hell if she's all of the above i don't hate on fly bitches. on the other hand if you are a raggidy ass chick who dont keep yourself up then im gonna have to point the shit out. i hate when i see a raggidy weave, dirty stained up clothes, jeans that look like they can walk by them selves, dirty shoes--u get what im tryin to say. anyhow, i really do think that kanye hit the jackpot with Amber Rose. she is like super beautiful and somewhat looks flawless. i've seen her with long hair--i just was not feelin it. I love her with no hair, it brings out the beauty in her face. am i right or am i right?

"I Don't Remember" -Yea, Okay.

i'm like always completely out of the loop when it comes to celebrity gossip and such. i used to mediatakeout.com often but lately i've just been in no need for gossip and falsies. truth be told i have barely been watching t.v. it just seems that reality t.v is just so super scripted and maybe i should just stick to my normal episodes: Scrubs, Desperate Housewives, King of Queens, Family Guy, First 48 and such. i also have been trying to be a teacher to myself by researching different things. google has become my best friend. anyways, back to what i really want to talk about. i have never really been a chris brown fan or a big rihanna fan. their whole situation has just been dragged out to its entirety. like the wheels have fallen off of that ride and i really dont think people care no more. i mean i never did. there are millions of domestic violence cases going on around the world and the media chooses to pick up this one and run it in the ground and drag it through the mud. then the fact they had this guy on Larry King and this jerk says he doesn't remember hitting the girl? pa-lease,guy. were you intoxicated? i mean did you black out from hitting her? i mean i dont even care about who hit who first. i dont care about what caused it. why dont i care? because these people mean absolutely nothing to me. how do you really care about a celebrity who just doesnt know you and all you know is their music/entertainment? i cant. then parents are all ranting a raving about the situation because their children look up to them. maybe you should be parents and your children should look up to YOU and someone who has actually made a DIFFERENCE in the actual world and not the entertainment business. its fine to let your children listen to their music and watch them perform but in my opinion its not okay to let them indulge on these peoples personal lives, granted it is all over the t.v and radio. teach your children something that will have a positive effect on their future.

on the other hand, i've been told i was "hating" on lil mama because i said they should call her "lil papi" because she looks like a lil boy. so shoot me. this lil chick is on this show on MTV giving her half cent on who can and cant dance? (i know im late) who even cares bout her opinion? like, how can you take advice from somebody who sales no records and her one hit wonder song was "my lipgloss is cool, my lip gloss be poppin" LMAO! CHICK you made a song abut lipgloss and i havent heard anything since!!!!!!! i'm really going to need you record companies to stop giving just anybody a deal. where is she now anyways? lmao. im done with her.

So something that i have been using forever now i finally decide to blog about. Neutrogena Rain Bath. they have come out with this new one and its a grapefruit scent. its more for women now, whereas the other one was more like a masculine scent. don't get me wrong i love masculine shit but i like the grapefruit one a lot better. it leaves you feeling so extra clean and refreshed. might i add i only use neutrogena products anyways. its the only thing that doesn't dry my skin out, and since my skin is extremely sensitive it works really well because it has salicylic acid instead of benzoyl peroxide in it. so go try it out and let me know how you like it.