While evaluating my life and where I'm headed, I realized that I over think things and I think too hard. It's not a bad thing and it comes in handy. I've decided to better myself in everything. Fun can wait until later. I have to focus on what my future is. Meanwhile-evaluating every aspect about me was well over due. I had to take a step outside myself to see whats really good. I don't hate to say it but the people I associated myself with was not a good look for me. I feel--when you are surrounded with positive energy, positive will happen. People have never influenced me to do anything that I didn't want to. That's stupid. I was never the type to feed off of "peer pressure". I just can't hang around people who live in the moment when there IS a future ahead of us all. It's hard to stay focused that way because they're talking about niggas and who they can pull while I'm talking about my future and where I want to be in less than five years. Its impossible for that type of person to be happy for you because they realize they aren't on the same path. Same book different page. You see me? Anyhow people fail to notice that I am Ms. Carmen Santiago in the flesh and I find out the truth about everything even if I get a slight migraine ironing out the situation. So for those people who I cut off or are starting not to pay attention to you. It's all because I found out you lied to me at one point over something extremely petty so that you can look cooler than you really are. No. ANNNNNNND I'm not sorry-and I don't accept your apology. I don't judge people but maybe you need to get some polish about yourself and step your game up. I'm on my way to making myself better woman. You can say whatever you want doesn't matter to me. I'm focused on something brand new. BUT I will not forget where I came from so to the people that were there for me or around me and who really know me, you know you'll ALWAYS see my face. Oh yea, I also want to thank Mervyn for having this great convo with me yesterday--it seems as if we are on the same page! Love ya Merv!
6 comments:
I co-sign with you 100%. I feel the exact same way. Great post!
Thanks!! A lot of people need to figure out where they are going in life and cut off negative energy
Dag, I hate you don't have an "Add This" button, because I wanted to share this on my FB page :(! But, oh well, it was so on point! A lot of females don't understand this "mindset". Love your blog!
yes maam!! i lovvve how you think! :)
I totally agree w you. You can not associate yourself w ppl that do not have goals or who are not even preparing for their future. Those ppl will only you bring you down, simply bc their not on the same path as you. Im not a person to live in the moment either. Im always thinking about what I need to do for myself or to make my life better. This was a GOOD read!
I had to say something else.....bc this is an issue that me & my boyfriend argue about a lot. He feels as thought I cut off a lot of my friends & family simply for no reason. This is not true I cut those losers off simply bc of everything you said in this post. These days ppl do not have goals & their surrounded by so much negative bullshit, that they dont take time to prepare for their future. While your off living your life & doing you those same ppl will still be in the same place, & they wont understand why.
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